feelin’ real good! on one hand, i’m kinda super duper anxious about work because i don’t know what i’m doing AT ALL. on the other hand i’m feelin’ real good!

yeah, don’t tell anyone but i have been working this weekend on job work because i’m so anxious about it. but i’ve also showered more days in a row than i can remember, and cooked nearly every meal i’ve ate! though i did also lick a lamb burger and then eat it from at some banker’s Christmas party which resulted in a lady telling me she would “end” me and calling me a ponce. i haven’t been called a ponce since i lived in Liverpool and i went out to the shop for a can of tizer one day with pyjama bottoms on.

i’ve been reading a lot, and writing too. going outside nearly every day. found a big Sainsbury’s near my flat (10 min walk) that i’d somehow not noticed for the first year i lived here. i got the brewdog advent calendar, but i am yet to drink even the first beer from it. i can’t really drink until i’ve solved this particular work problem. just the part where i understand what i’m actually going to do. once i’ve solved that i can drink all day like normal.

what else… what else… oh yes! i joined a hermetic order. can’t talk much about it right now but i did the induction in my kitchen and it was quite the event of fire and light.

oh also my dutchie lid got stuck in my frying pan for a week but i managed to get it off by cooling the dutchie lid down with ice while heating the pan up with fire.

there must be other things… maybe not. glad to be reading again, glad to have a challenging problem. nervous, very nervous. drinking a lot of tea. still a bit sick, but i think it’s more the evidence of how the virus has ravaged my body than any sign it remains there still.

i fear i may have offended someone, but i don’t remember who.

say you were an actual Magick magician, right? and you wanted to hide in plain sight. You want to be able to protect your ancient secrets, and invite new people to learn these hidden mysteries, but you want to be able to talk about it publicly without anyone coming snooping around who wasn’t serious or who wanted to take advantage of you

Yeah, you want to set up a secret group, that is able to trade openly, teach openly, pay taxes, avoid taxes, all the normal stuff… all while protecting your secrets AND your treasures… what do you do?

with that question in mind, let’s think about the occultist and symbolic artist Austin Osman Spare, Grandfather of Chaos Magic. he, among many other things in his weird life, hand-painted his own tarot deck in 1906. 1906!! that’s 3 years before the famous pixie deck was published.

This hand-painted tarot deck is in London, in a museum. The museum of…. The Magic Circle.

As in, ta-da alakazam close-up david blaine saw’d your wife up fire-sparkle-shuffle shuffle cut this deck take any card sir bunny from a hat type magic ✨. What’s going on there then?

blue and gold door with circular logo "the magic ✨ circle indocillis privata loqui" and the astrological signs around an empty white circle
why is their door like this
"the magic circle indocillis privata loqui" and the astrological signs around an empty white circle.
why is their logo so?

the latin says something like… “unteachable private speech” i think?

yeah, that’s right. what if the Magic Circle—as in, the guild of party magicians— is a real magick secret society. what better way to hide in plain sight? because these people seem like total dorks… nobody would believe they have the secrets! their whole shtick is that they are dorks who lie about having the secrets!!!!!!

anyway i’m going snooping

ah, just found out about httrack(1) (available in homebrew brew install httrack). it’s a website mirrorer. it is more straightforward to use for this task than wget --mirror --convert-links --other-arguments-i-forget www.example.com

httrack www.lynxlodge49.com

it works, converts the links, downloads everything. it’s great, just what you want.