i’m not in a good place

not.to be maudlin but these days even when I’m having a nightmare I’m disappointed when I wake up

fella called Pat just walked up to me in a park and started telling me about how he was a jockey.

in 77 he lost 7.6 stone and raced the County Christo (?)

he has photographs he told me he was related to the Taoiseach

“sleeping in the park? sure we’re all prime ministers”

he asked me if i’d rather a cider or a lager and he’d get it and come back and meet me.

i told him i’ll have to go here, Pat and he asked me my name and i said chee. 5 minutes later he said “who are you” and i said “chee” and he said “aye i’ve heard of you”

• i took 4 days holiday, but then i was sick all week, chest infection
• saw a nice flat in sevenoaks, but i didn’t get it
• went to a rave
• went to a reggae night
• i wish i wasn’t the kind of person that had to be proud to have done the dishes
• but who will tuck me in and read me the winnie pooh
• in season2 ep9 of sopranos pussy says “positive vibes only”
• aj soprano, a youtuber, and meadow soprano have a podcast together

somehow while I was asleep I removed the whole duvet cover and put it under my head

for some reason every time an estate agent asks me if i will be bringing any pets, i want to tell them i have 1 hedgehog

I’m sitting under the only remaining shelter on Peckham High Street waiting for the rain to pass but the tree is starting to fail and I might have to run for it