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    week 4; 2022

    • thanks

    • i've been trying to burn a mix CD in 2022.

      • Music.app still shows the option "Burn playlist to disk" if you insert a blank CD.
      • I made a playlist for reasons that can't be discussed here for now.
        • got the songs from a variety of places.
          • some i bought from iTunes,
            • some i already had
          • some i downloaded on Soulseek, and
          • another i bought on Bandcamp.
      • I tried with a bunch of disks, kept failing to burn.
        • Tried with different speeds and usb ports and all kinds, no luck.
        • figured it was my shitty cheap eBay cd writer
        • Eventually bought an Apple SuperDrive. in 2022. got it cheap on eBay.
          • It worked!
            • then i discovered i'd accidentally put a track with a hidden track as track 2.
              • i cut that track up, putting the hidden part at the end of the mix CD ;D ;)
    • oh? are we back to doing bullets, rabbits?

    • On Wednesday I went into the office. Then I went out with some people from work I don't see very often and gathered a hangover, and found myself defending my inclusion of elon musk on the list of people i will be visiting once i get my gun.

    • On Thursday I went into the office again so I could attend boardgames and see Dani and Christabel.

      • i love them, and several of their friends

      • Christabel left quite early, after which I drank very quickly and then went to karaoke with many complete strangers and also S.

      • I don't really remember much other than I said way too much several times, and there was a cute person there who cared as much as i do about Night Shape and S was very kind and took care of me and and I once again found myself defending my inclusion of elon musk on the list of people i will be visiting once i get my gun. for reference, see the 3 trueanon episodes about elon to understand why he deserves to be on the ch'k-ch'k-boom list and please stop defending billionaires you bunch of weirdos

        • thanks
          • thanks thanks thanks thanks thanks
        • and i remember saying "thanks thanks thanks thanks thanks thanks" during the instrumentals of karaoke songs
          • and i remember my voice being completely ruined but trying to sing anyway
        • and i remember not caring what anybody thinks
    • On Thursday I also had lunch with one of my absolute favourite colleagues, and learned some very interesting historical info about their family and a variety of jungle animals

    • Follow-up on the Monzo fraud thing: The Financial Ombudsman took my side and the charges were all reversed, and then Monzo sent me an extra **Ā£**50 to apologize for making me call ombudsman on them.

      • ombudsmans rule banksĀ drool
        • i can't wait to escalate more things to anĀ ombudsman. this is a whole new path for me.
        • if you are rude to me i will tell theĀ ombudsman
    • On Friday i hid in a dark room and flaked on everybody.

      • i feel so bad for not attending E's birthday. i think of her every time i look at the stars, yet i was not there for her birthday.
      • if anyone ever tells you it's ok to say no to things they are lying
    • I spent most of Saturday cataloguing Lee Harvey Oswald content in DEVONthink 3

      • he was truly a patsy
      • but not just a patsy
        • i'm working on texas school book depository again.
    • then i had a psychedelic experience on a bus and stratford westfield, and on greater anglia train

      • how many gecs is this?
      • ca_n't get out, can't get out_
      • f_eel like iā€™m moving but iā€™m not, feel like iā€™m movi_ng but iā€™m not
    • On Saturday evening I attended a strange event

      • felt like rave culture filtered through an HR department

        • i can't be having being cc'd in an email with a bunch of strangers
        • or having the few beers i brought confiscated on the way in
        • or gendered bathrooms
        • hired Security, no feeling of security
        • licensed bar(??)
        • somewhat art
        • also a vibe that i canā€™t explain. artsy, serious, oppressive, like there is a way to be there. canā€™t put my finger on it, but ā€¦ itā€™s party vibes not rave vibes . and when i say party i mean dinner party not AWK party.
        • they also didn't give me my beer back on the way out
          • one person pretended not to remember the beer
          • another pretended they threw it in a skip
          • i told them i was not looking for reimbursement and begged them simply for some sincerity, which they refused
      • all that being said it was really wonderful too.

        • the lights and the music, very good. especially later.

        • we held hands and told each other we loved each other and held each other and i legit criedĀ lol

        • tatiana and katya were there, who i love uncontrollably.

          • it was very hard to leave while they were there
        • there was also someone there who kept calling me Thumper, which i enjoyed

    • i wish i was born with no genitals just completely smooth from the top to the bottom all around just an egg i wish i was born a perfect angel baby eggĀ all smooth and beautiful

    • After that event, i walked for thirty minutes listening to hyperpop and then took a train from one business park unit to another

      • i had to leave that event shortly after i arrived because the vibe was all wrong
        • i'm trying to listen to myself when i get a vibe, after new years when i ignored the vibe and it was real
      • this vibe was so fucked that it's making me think i should have done something about it, rather than just tell everyone why i was leaving and then leave.
    • oh and also, at the risk of embarrassing myself dreadfully moments from now:

      • i appear to have given up smoking?
        • don't know if it's real, but i haven't had any nicotine since Friday morning
          • didn't use a vape, didn't buy any cigs. don't have any.
        • the idea of smoking a cigarette seemed gross to me earlier, several times.
          • don't know,seems strange.
          • i didn't do it on purpose, i just forgot to smoke all day and now it's Day 3.
    • i think i have something in my paper journal i wanted to write about here, but it's slightly too far away so i'm going to hit that publish button

    • thanks

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