the luckiest rabbit in the world. the bigger the rabbit the luckier the feet. chee party oswald the lucky rabbit.

i am very sorry that the first [chee rabbits] was such a keen disappointment to everyone. hereafter we will aim for a younger character. peppy, alert, saucy and venturesome, keeping [her] neat and trim

yes, a spot of the usual trouble. seboma trouble. good trouble. smiling trouble. blinking in the light type trouble. tap-tap-tap at the bloody window pane type trouble.

oh, but. the week. it started harder than expected. of course my ex wrote an open letter to me on her blog to let me know that she’d moved on. and so i read that and then i got a call from the mexican groceries store to tell me that they were out of the salsa roja. and then i noticed in my e-mails that my landlord has activated a no-fault eviction and i’ll be out at the beginning of march.

this is rather inconvenient. i’d been planning on making huevos divorciados para desayuno de mañana. jajaja. for real though, the timing is quite poor. this apartment is so cheap for the size of it. i have all this furniture. i’m going to belgium at the end of the month, and spain for a week. and the train for 11 hours one time (that part’s going to be wonderful).

so into boxes go my lives again. and how much of this can i commit to the garbage? and why did i buy such a large sofa? everywhere on rightmove (hi, alice) is +50% the price and -50% the size, what on earth is a little rabbit supposed to do? put it all in boxes, have a look. take all this furniture apart.

i finished piranesi. it’s very good. hurt. that scratching on the inside of the skin. you should read it too so i can use it as a metaphor when we are talking.

the biggest life changes are those little things that lower the background radiation of frustation on a permanent basis.

dr basman took me out for a late brunch at the wolsley, smoked salmon and scrambled eggs and a lovely afternoon. the next morning me and lu and mimo went through the foc submissions. afterwards i sent everybody a little e-mail. i am excited about the it.

when i look around this room my heart breaks a little bit. the healthiest portion of my life so far took place in here. the most stable. a couple of relationships. the best music i ever made too. so much of what i am now started between these walls. i’ve been here longer than i’ve been anywhere other than my parents place as a kid. the next chapter is set to be very special, very strange. this winter can hold on to the sentimental bits of 2026. january seems darker and colder than december. take those off the wall. wave goodbye to broken mirrors? one of them came with me all the way from london bridge.

the black square on the bathroom floor tells me i’ve transitioned from the red box with stripes to the mustard section. i don’t think i’ve been in the mustard since 2017. 2026 ain’t ready for this bitch.

what’re we doing after this?

hello

it’s me

it’s ya girl

much <3 from ya girl

• as the end of the year drew near i said no to an instance of certain chaos
• hung out with an old friend on a facetime video call
  • it was special
  • nice to see an old friend
• hung out with a new friend on a facetime video call
  • it was special
  • nice to have a new friend
  • she did my astral chart and gave me the business
    • a decade of internal confusion is drawing to a close
    • it will be followed by a decade of external confusion
      • i’m leaning into this by becoming an esoteric public figure
• at midnight i drew 14
  • one for each month and two for the theme
  • it said the magnum opus
    • time to work, time to focus
    • all my dreams and wishes will come true
  • so that’s good news
  • sometimes you just need a little page
  • sometimes you can be the little page
• trying to find a one piece swimsuit with shorts that will cover the most horrifying parts of my body in case i decide to go swimming in the ice cold water in the swimming pool
  • in spain
    • next month!!!
• hold it loose, don’t let go
  • broken rules, don’t let go
    • golden goose, don’t let go
      • holy book, focus group, closer look, photobooth
        • don’t let go
      • frozen food, spoke the truth, open book, social proof
        • don’t let go

what else? light week. worked a little. rested, made some music. wrote no software. i’m not quite ready for the year. i’m excited for it, i’m just not ready tonight. i’ll be ready tomorrow. it’s an extremely big year. extremely big year. i have to be entirely not insane for the longest uninterupted run of my life so far. risky business. gotta be good time after time like hermes trismegistus. keep on going. like a clippership with wind assistance. easy money. not quite in my grip, but it’s within spitting distance.

big year. 2026. the year. the year. who’s here in 2026? we here. i’m not even concerned about it i just got caught up rhyming. (sick and twisted. wicked witches. chicken gristle. disney princes. listed buildings. pickle lifter. lift and shift it. skinny dipper.) i’m super excited. my wardrobe is full and my heart is open and my mind is clear.

i’ve started reading Piranesi because two people i have warm feelings towards have recommended it to their audience amongst whom i count. it is very enjoyable and i am quite uncomfortable, and will likely finish it this evening or the next.

there are some aspects of returning to work tomorrow that i am absolutely thrilled about. i miss my colleagues.

i’ve booked an electrolysis consultation for the morning. my face skin has become so thin and soft that i now have a visible shadow on my upper lip at all times. and i can’t shave it because my skin is now so sexy and gentle that it gets rly irritated and then i have a red and black moustache. and there’s only so much you can do with colour correcting primer and industrial strength translucent powder.

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