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    checking deliveroo to see if the sainsburys i’m about to walk to has celeriac lmao
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    accidental damage

    There was someone with a voice I didn't recognise laughing in the hallway outside my apartment; they had a really strange laugh. While I was trying to process this strange new clown enemy, a wasp flew at me. I really can't handle wasps; I have a phobia. In a panic state I swung out at the great beast with whatever was in my hands: myΒ Lenovo Thinkpad T14s (Gen1).

    It crashed against the door and the screen came off its hinge.

    EPILOGUE

    My windows were closed all day yesterday, the wasp must have been inside a long time. I found it this morning in the kitchen. It was crawling around on the radiator, trying to scale a bottle of aloe vera hand sanitizer.

    Each time it would get a little further, and then fall back to the radiator. Sometimes it fell through the holes in the radiator and had to climb all the way back up the internals.

    So small it seemed now, the great beast of yesterday, I chose to spare it. Opening the kitchen window, watching the tiny pitiable creature muster enough strength to fly out into the morning sun, I must admit, I felt a little tinge of hope.

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    the warning animal

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    Sunday, May 30, 2021

    • trigger warning: diet, weight, eating disorders
      • it was 2017 when i last lost a huge amount of weight. i lost about half my weight.
        • i used keto
        • eventually i realised, sometime in 2018, that thinking about food all the time and counting calories in an app was disordered
          • i've struggled with bulimia in the past, and various other mental and dietary issues
            • i was sectioned a number of years ago, so i try to be careful about cultivating new and interesting disorders
        • i decided to stop dieting, to let myself gain weight and not feel bad about it
        • i have a blood test from 2018 which shows my blood sugar was fine
        • so now i know that giving myself a break has literally given me diabetes
        • and the way to live with diabetes is to go on a diet almost identical to keto
        • what an exciting new challenge
        • what a depressing, yet thematically sound, series of events
    • i've been sick most of this week
      • physically
      • though mentally i am not doing well
        • i am not looking forward to the next part of my life
        • i don't know how to cook for myself without rice
        • i don't know how to be alone
        • sometimes i have this warm and comforting daydream where i die in my sleep
    • i set up backups on my laptop and the snoot.club server this morning
      • i'm using borg
        • because fox told me to

          • basically borg and restic is where the deduplicated encryption backup stuff is at Foxboron

        • it is a cool piece of software though

    • i was going to look into adding a gutenberg sidebar for the indieweb Post Kinds wordpress plugin this weekend, but instead i closed my laptop and had a lie down
    • i bought the Besley* and Jost* variable fonts from indestructible type* for my weblog
      • Jost* is the variable futura of my dreams
      • here is another great font: https://www.dafont.com/w95fa.font
        • i'm using this as my system font at the moment. it looks great.
          • screenshot of my computer with a retro windows-like
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    • remember when they reanimated bob monkhouse's ashen corpse so he could appear in an advert on terrestrial television
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    public software

    i've just done some info crunching,trying to distil what i want to say with "free software" but without the problems of the term "free software" (having to explain you don't mean $$$) and the problem with "open-source" (having to explain it's also still Free) and all the related bad terms like: FOSS FLOSS etc and i have come up with a new and better term:

    public software

    update: i am not the first person to use this term :D