work has been very busy, very good. having a good time.

on thursday evening i went out for dinner at ganapati with becky. that’s one of the top people the world has made. she’s vegetarian and i’m doing this low-carb-so-i-don’t-die-so-soon thing, so a place that has a killer veggie thali seemed like a good option. thali wasn’t on the menu, for some reason, maybe they stopped doing that. we got three main meals instead. afterwards we went to a bar and drank 2 pots of tea. i was up until 3am. guess it was strong tea. the scotsman behind the bar seemed furious to be selling us tea.

because work has been so much i’ve been trying to take it quiet in my spare time. also, of course, i’m not drinking. and i spent too much money last month… and this month, so all that adds up to staying home, playing video games, making tasty meals. i haven’t been making any music or doing much creative, but i’ll get back on that soon enough.

one of the things i spent too much money on is a steam deck. it’s very cool? repairable, runs arch linux and kde plasma, a great computer and game machine. im writing this blog post on it

add me on steam, my tag is cheedear i think.

lol! plumb forgot to post yesterday.

what have i done this week? i don’t know if it’s anything. i:

  • played the role of User to do a user test for my lb.
  • worked
  • played video games

is that it?

yeah i really think i’ve just been working and playing video games for a week lol. and i’m gonna do it again for another week!!! idgaf!!!!!

you ever look at yourself in the mirror and it’s cute and then you take a selfie and you look like a ņ̵̨̡̧̨̡̡̨̢̡̖̺̲̣͎̝̘̮̯̟̹͔̣̹͖͓͉͇͈̤̞̮̳̳̼̬͔͚͈̗̗͍̩͓͖̞̼͔̞͓̬̦̰͖̯̞̯̰̟̱̪̲̥̻̳̠̖̤̩̌͗͆̈̐͌͜͝ǫ̵̨̡̬̪͖͔̹̞̠͈̙̲͙̭̬̬̱͕̘̼̣͙̘̝̱̳̖̞̱̘͈̖̟̪̳̰̭̦̲̯͇͇͔̞̘͍͓͉̮͑͒͑̋͐̋̍͋̔͛̄̉͌̓̀͘̕ͅţ̵̨̨̢̢̨̢̢̧̨̢̡̛̛͕̣͙̞͖͙̻̝̘̝̘̰̝̠̙͕̱̙̩̤͔͈̠͖̗͔̯̖͓̞͖̟̘̙̳̪͓̭̩̤̮͉̱͚̥̫̥͇̱̻̳̤̫͕̫̼͔͉̥̟͕̥̝̱̳̯̜̫̘͓̼̩͓͍̻̯̣̹͉̞̙̭̣͉͎̝̱̙̖̈́̍͗͋̎̀̀́͂͊͆́̅̽̊̃̋̾̔̈́̑͗̆̔̄̂̅̔͛̅̌̊͑̃͊̇̎̋͒͂͂̅̂́̾͐̏͋͒͋͆̑̈́̆͗͋̔̑͛̍͛̐̀͂̓̽͊̓̓͒̐̎͆̈̎͋̆̍̀̋̽̚̚͘͘͝͝͝͝͝͝͠͠͝ͅͅͅͅh̶̡̧̡̧̢̢̧̧̡̨̨̨̧̢̢̡̧̢͖̗̥͇̫͔̲̥̖̩̙̪̤͍͙̭̭͎̰͕̠̞̜̦̼̜̣̹̞͔̫̹̘̟͈̺͎͍̫̠̹͓̞̲̱̜͙̱͖̣̠͙̖̘͍̪̣̲̜͉͈̦͕̳̫̠̥͙̯̬̬͕̲͇͓͇̤͎̼̟̦͔͉͉͉̭͇̤̩͕͔̬̫̗͉̰̫̱̻̼͙̮͕̮͖͔͎̼̪̤̪̘̤̮̜͇̣̯͉̻̝̞̒̋̄̅̈̅͛̇̓͐̉͑͋͂̐͒̎͆̽̋͊̈̍̂̀́̽̏̐̑͛͑͌̊̈́́̈́̃̌̀͆͊̂̐̀͆͛̅̐͂̏͂̽͗̇̓̉̇̄̏̎̌̉͌͐̿̒́͊̎͒̈́̃̀̽̉͐͗̆̐̓̈́̕͘̕͘̚̕̚͘͘̕̚̕͜͜͜͜͝͠͝͝ͅͅā̴̡̡̢̧̧̛̛̛̛̛͙̹̗͈̰̺̱̭̼͕̮̩͈̼̖͖̺̝̭̹͙͕̪̘͓͙͖͚̠̻̳̭̤̱͉̣͓̳͉͓̟͕̥̳̜̲͎͔̱̟͙̮͕̥̭̬̮̤̬͎͍̯͚̳͚̝̮͉̬̱̯̰͙̟̰̲͙̯̘̣̠̼͚̬͍̰̬̖̩̺̰̱̬͖̩̬͉̹̯̳̮̥͎̟͕̾̒͋̈́̏͋͛͊̔̀̂̇͆͌̀͋̈́̉͒̏̓̒̉̄̐̎̋́͂̈́̿̎́̏́͐̉̃͊̂̏̂̀̃̈́͋́̑̅̊̒̑̈́͐͂́̿̍̍̉͒̀̈́̀͛͌̽̇̅̎͗̐͌͐͗̏̿̿̿̋̈́̇̓̇̍̃̌̇̽̐̀̅͐͌́͛̇̋̈́̓͆̃̀͛̋͂̇̊̈́̆̉̓̋̓͗̋͐̐͘͘̕͘͘̕̚̕͝͝͝͠͝͝͝͠ͅͅͅͅn̴̡̢̨̨̢̨̨̢̖͓͙͔̤͕̼͉̜̱͓̟̰͉͍̫̩͙̹̜͈̝̩̮͚͚̬̼̪̦̟̰̘̪̮̯͇̤̙̭̤͂̏̒̎͋̀̈̀̉̂̿̕͜͜͜͝ͅk̷̨̧̡̢̢̡̨̡̢̧̨̡̢̛̛̛̛̻͔̰͖̗̟̝̳̻̲͓̦̠̖̥̬͖̮̩̠̻̟͓̰̳͖̠̬̝̟̫̥̳̗̫̫̱̝̖͚͖̫̪̖͓̣̰̠̯̹̜̤̥̖̭̲̪͇̯͖̙̬͎̞̰̘̩̺̦͍͔̘̙̥͍̤͇͓͚̹̘̰̥̳̱̯͍̘͇̼͉̗̱̤̰͍͔̖̲͇̘̲̦̲̜̠̠̭̻͚̤͍͚̖͙̪̭̘̘̗͉̠̖̱̟͙͕͕̤̟̼̤̲͖͓̔̌́͒̌̍̒͌͛͛̾̒̈́̓̎̈̀̔͂̽͌́͗͑͌̇̒̈́͛̀̓͑̽̋́́́̀͊́͐̈́͌̄̏̏̈́̊͑̀̈́́͆̄̉̐̏̊̊̇͐̐͗̀̆͊͆͗͛͆̍͗̉̌͒́̌̐͑͐̈́̽̇̏͛̈́̀̈̓̏́́̏͆̓͗̆͋̌̓̾̽́̎͒͛̈̓͂̎͐̒͗̆́̓̑͘͘͘̚͘͘̚͘̚͘̚͘̕͜͜͜͜͜͜͝͝͝͝͝͠͝͠ͅͅͅͅẙ̸̢̡̡̛̲͔̗̯̫̟͓̯͖̞͇̖͇̜̤̗͚̀̆͒̒̈́͂͐̑̓͗̑́͊̎̈̑̊̇̍̿̀́͐̑̇̏͋̈́̈̀̈́͋̆̉͗͗̈͑̾̎͒̃̈́̒͋̓͌̉͑̈͋́͐̓̀̈́̉͊̂̒̚̚͘͜͝͝͠ờ̸̡̧̡̛̛̛̛̛͖̯̭̮̲͚̝͖̙̓͒̐̿̍̆̑͋̈́̃͋͆̔̑̌̈̈́͆͒́̔̽̊̈́̓̉̋̊̓͛́́́̅̆̉̽̈́̾̿͗͛͗͂̽̀͆̉̉̀̎̈́́̌́̃̅̃̎̌̒͛́̄̍̈́͊͊͋̃͋̇̽́̃̈́̉̓̇̏̀̐̐͗́̇́͊̅̑̉̄̒͆͐̿̏̈̄̊́̔̽̈́͒̈́́̍̒̇̽̃͐̏́̀̔͛̋͋́̎͛̓͗̑͐̌͊̾͛͂̈͒͗̐̾̿̓͛̓̄̈̄̌̇̈́́̒͌̉͊̕̕̚͘̚̕̚͘͝͠͝͝͠͠͝͝͠͠ͅư̴̡̢͉̱̫̳̦̬̣̪̦͎̰̮̺͔̼̪̦͍̻͚͍̳̯̹̰̳̺̱̦̞̱̥͍͎̜̜͇͈̹̳̦̙͈̠̦͉͎̻̫͕̣̺̰̱͔̼͎̺͆̐̊̋̎̃̔̿̇̈́̍̂̀̉̿̓̀̏́̍͐͛̀̅͊͒̇̎̆̽̏̀̄̈̓̈́̒͌́͑̔̃̾͗̑̍̈́́̒̐̀̀͑͌͂̀̾̌́͑̒́͗͊̑̎̓͛̃̎̉͗̽̓̉́́̍͑̆̌̑̔͂̚͘͘̚͘̕̕̕̕̚͘͜͜͝͝͝͝͝͝͝

anyway. can’t believe i forgot to post. slept just fine.

can you believe it’s only been 2 weeks now? feels like it’s been 2023 forever! maybe i’ve just been busy!

good week. went to the office, saw people, it was nice. ate a burrito bowl. barbacoa. great. it was really good to sit at the 3a kitchen area we built and chat with people. it’s such a good spot.

started team. it went well. tiring so far. lots of work. pretty excited. everybody seems happy. wee buns.

spent the weekend mostly playing cyberpunk 2077 and watching bocchi the rock. went out for some walks, cooked some nice meals, made some goulash… but the week was so full and busy i needed a quite empty weekend. though i’ve been talking with folks from an internet art collective about helping out so i’ve still been doing stuff that’s like what i do at work.

i really enjoy thinking deeply about stuff. i’ve missed it. don’t feel like i’ve done that for a few years.

oh also i still have not had an alcoholic drink avatar 2 was released. they aren’t related but they happened on the same day so that’s how i’ve been remembering it. so that’s a month tomorrow. went to the bar on thursday evening and drank ice water and chatted.

soon it will be time to take a little break from work, because i am exhausted. but first we must complete The Task, and begin The Next. then i will rest.

i’m sure there is more but i haven’t been taking journaling notes.

things are great. still trying to understand my blood sugar. rain is falling hard out here.

In the eighteenth century it became trendy among the rich to read books and poems by uneducated working class writers. They liked the novelty of a genius in poverty. When your parents died and you had to look after your sisters, writing poetry might have been a viable source of income, if you had the right kind of backstory.

one week ago was new year’s day, feels like it’s been 2023 longer than that. i’ve already been through a break-up and a reconciliation and been to the cinema several times.

i found a new pond near my apartment. new to me, i gather from the confident waddle of the ducks that this has been their home for a while. its pretty and has benches and ducks and swans.

work is going well. genuinely excited about the next project, even more so about the people i will be working with. the work itself is less exciting than the opportunity grow and demo a culture. the future looks good.

i’m doing everything i can to stay mentally where i need to be to do play my part in the next chapter of my life. i can’t believe how much work it is to stay consistent. amazed by everyone who does this.

got an instant pot. i ordered it from the manufacturer’s website. it was delivered in an amazon box by an amazon delivery driver. i’m just about to exploit life’s still-unpatched infinite yoghurt glitch by putting yoghurt and milk in there until it becomes more yoghurt. that’s kara’s joke. thanks kara.

i submitted some art for a zine. i’ll probably post it next week.

what a fine year!

in Scotland the 2nd of January is a holiday called “2nd of January”. because New Years Day falls on a Sunday this year, the new years day holiday is Monday and the 2nd of January falls on 3rd of January in Scotland.

i’ve been in incredible form today, so for my future self reading this: week 50 really does work!

this week i was off sick most of the time, but i did get some good work done on Friday.

live footage of the events of midnight 2022/2023

for my new years celebration, i woke up at 8am and ate some mushrooms and had a bath. then i lay around thinking about stuff for a while. once i could operate my body again, i started tidying my apartment. i spent most of rest of the day cleaning and tidying. and i fixed the leak from the washing machine! which is great. at about 11:45p.m. i drew myself another bath. a CBD bath bomb from Lush. then i got a big chunk of vintage cheddar (the tickler) and lay in the bath eating cheese and vibrating until the new year had come. it will be chinese year of the rabbit. i drew my yearly tarot, the tarot agrees it will be a good year.

i’m relaunching today on this domain, doing it by myself this time. look forward to those! there’s no atom feed for it (yet?), but i’ll post here when i make new ones. the first one is up, i like it.

let’s do art on-line, on websites, together! art that is websites. remember when you used to have to find a specific pixeL?

thanks for being around this year.

2023 is gonna be a banger.