Sunday, May 30, 2021
- trigger warning: diet, weight, eating disorders
- it was 2017 when i last lost a huge amount of weight. i lost about half my
weight.
- i used keto
- eventually i realised, sometime in 2018, that thinking about food all
the time and counting calories in an app was disordered
- i've struggled with bulimia in the past, and various other mental
and dietary issues
- i was sectioned a number of years ago, so i try to be careful about cultivating new and interesting disorders
- i've struggled with bulimia in the past, and various other mental
and dietary issues
- i decided to stop dieting, to let myself gain weight and not feel bad about it
- i have a blood test from 2018 which shows my blood sugar was fine
- so now i know that giving myself a break has literally given me diabetes
- and the way to live with diabetes is to go on a diet almost identical to keto
- what an exciting new challenge
- what a depressing, yet thematically sound, series of events
- it was 2017 when i last lost a huge amount of weight. i lost about half my
weight.
- i've been sick most of this week
- physically
- though mentally i am not doing well
- i am not looking forward to the next part of my life
- i don't know how to cook for myself without rice
- i don't know how to be alone
- sometimes i have this warm and comforting daydream where i die in my sleep
- i set up backups on my laptop and the snoot.club server this morning
- i was going to look into adding a gutenberg sidebar for the indieweb Post Kinds wordpress plugin this weekend, but instead i closed my laptop and had a lie down
- i bought the Besley* and
Jost* variable fonts from
indestructible type* for my weblog
- Jost* is the variable futura of my dreams
- here is another great font:
https://www.dafont.com/w95fa.font
- i'm using this as my system font at the moment. it looks great.
- i'm using this as my system font at the moment. it looks great.
- remember when they reanimated bob monkhouse's ashen corpse so he could appear in an advert on terrestrial television
