chanting “i’m having a nap, i’m having a nap” is not the same as having a nap

Sunday, September 12, 2021

i never intended to write weeknotes
- i wanted to write a blog post every Sunday
  - so that at least once a week, i wrote something
- it was meant to be ideas like the founding of nintendo or posts about projects like today.snoot.club
- but then things got busy and weeknotes was easy to post every Sunday
- but it’s meant that i don’t post as often during the week, and i only ever capture things in my notebook during the week rather than on my website
  - that’s been good a veces, too, because in my notebook i can write whatever i think about something without checking if it’s what i really believe
    - i can make mistakes and try things out without thinking about my coworkers, my ex, my ex’s mother, and the complete strangers who came here from The website of Alice Bartlett
  - but i regret how it means i don’t post as often, saving things up for the weeknotes, and how it means i don’t working on longer posts containing actual prose
- another thing is i don’t post videos or images very often because i can’t figure out how to add alt text from the android app
  - i’m going to try to post and fix up later on computer
the first twelve days of September have been longer than the whole rest of the year
- and this hasn’t been a particularly easy year
- i’m working on something at work that is taking a lot of my energy
- then at nights i’ve been packing
i just got the keys yesterday to my new place, it’s great here.
- a pale slim ghost kindly rented a van and helped me move my millions of boxes today
  - i am so tired, my little feet, my little feet
first home cooked meal in my new home

it's an improvised curry i'm calling "chicken balti masala" because i didn't have any yoggy to do the tikkaing and i replaced most of the spices with my homemade balti mix lol. there's a tin of heinz cream of tomato in there

my todo list has manifested physically

a room filled with cardboard boxes and the natural light coming through the single large window — gotta unpack all this before ikea gets here. also my favourite sock pair of **monkeys on one foot, bananas on the other** has started to disintegrate.

i am so tired. i am having a nap, having a nap, having a nap.
i’ve been playing the guitar and keyboard and remembered that’s so much fun.
- excited to make new, less rigid, music
when i finally had the door closed and was alone in my new place, my whole body started cracking and crackling like a bowl of rice krispies. i can move, there is space to move
¿You ever admit something unexpected to yourself like “I love these monkey and banana socks”?
I forgot how hard it is to sleep in a new place for a big scaredy-rabbit like me
because nobody will ever see me naked again I will no longer shaving my legs above the knees
i hope you are having a nice weekend

forgot my plant

i really don’t want to spend two hundred pounds on a chair, but what about my lumbar?

i’m on my way to collect the keys

my feet up on my bag of quilts and pillows

today i will have a bubblebath while i await the arrival of my mattress, then i will put it in the bedframe that comes out of the wall and have the biggest nap in my empty home

happy 9/11 everybody !!!

cookie monster eating the twin towers. c is for capital, that's good enough for me

I’m getting the keys to my new flat today