Continued to be full of mucus for most of the week
Went to an art night at a squat on Wednesday, let someone use my hand as a brush
walked with them to the bus, and got the bus, and stood around in the cold
it was nice
On Friday night i tried to fix my sleep schedule (which was beat up by covid)
i went to bed at 9p.m.
i woke up at 2a.m. on Saturday and couldnât get back to sleep
eventually at around 6a.m. i gave in and i made some spaghetti đ with cream cheese and bacon
On Saturday I went to see The Matrix with Christabel. I enjoyed the movie. Christabel did not.
there was no price paid, so it does not resolve well. kind of feels like the first half or first third of something.
Afterwards we went to a Wetherspoonâs (The Kingâs Tun)
If a friend needs 3 no-strings-attached utility hickeys to prove to the people at work they live an interesting life, itâs perfectly normal to just give them 3 no-strings-attached hickeys there in the pub as a friend and then to feel normal about it
While I was there, I was invited to a birthday party
They didnât have any vegan birthday cake so I got some from Waitrose, and some candles from a corner shop and travelled with it on public transport from Kingston to Tottenham
I forgot to download any music before the journey, so I listened to 1 song on repeat
One day recently i had some social anxiety and a voice told me âhey: nobody knows why youâre doing what youâre doingâ and itâs unlocked some kind of super-power and i havenât had social anxiety since.
let me see if i can explain it in a way where you donât need to be inside my head: you ever find yourself doing something that you know looks insane, but you have a reason to be doing it so you donât feel weird about it?
like you are doing it for a joke, or a favour?
or maybe youâre buying a HUGE amount of yoghurt, but youâre going to a yoghurt party and normally youâd be like âwow thatâs too much yoghurt to buyâ, but now youâre like âhey iâm going to a yoghurt partyâ
yeah well basically nobody knows youâre NOT going to a yoghurt party
nobody ever knows that whatever youâre doing that youâre not going to a party for that.
well, anyway, dancing alone on the underground
I spent all night at the birthday party until 7a.m. playing boardgames
I got a taxi home
I slept all day
My sleep schedule is still in disrepair, but hopefully salvageable
itâs PITCH BLACK in there. you canât see ANYTHING.