week 48; 2022
woooooo!
feelinā real good! on one hand, iām kinda super duper anxious about work because i donāt know what iām doing AT ALL. on the other hand iām feelinā real good!
yeah, donāt tell anyone but i have been working this weekend on job work because iām so anxious about it. but iāve also showered more days in a row than i can remember, and cooked nearly every meal iāve ate! though i did also lick a lamb burger and then eat it from at some bankerās Christmas party which resulted in a lady telling me she would āendā me and calling me a ponce. i havenāt been called a ponce since i lived in Liverpool and i went out to the shop for a can of tizer one day with pyjama bottoms on.
iāve been reading a lot, and writing too. going outside nearly every day. found a big Sainsburyās near my flat (10 min walk) that iād somehow not noticed for the first year i lived here. i got the brewdog advent calendar, but i am yet to drink even the first beer from it. i canāt really drink until iāve solved this particular work problem. just the part where i understand what iām actually going to do. once iāve solved that i can drink all day like normal.
what elseā¦ what elseā¦ oh yes! i joined a hermetic order. canāt talk much about it right now but i did the induction in my kitchen and it was quite the event of fire and light.
oh also my dutchie lid got stuck in my frying pan for a week but i managed to get it off by cooling the dutchie lid down with ice while heating the pan up with fire.
there must be other thingsā¦ maybe not. glad to be reading again, glad to have a challenging problem. nervous, very nervous. drinking a lot of tea. still a bit sick, but i think itās more the evidence of how the virus has ravaged my body than any sign it remains there still.
i fear i may have offended someone, but i donāt remember who.