sometimes i'm afraid to go to sleep because i know i'm going to wake up tomorrow
a different person i don't know what ways i'll be different. i know i'll have a
different set of interests but i don't know if that set will contain the project
i started working on tonight.  i wish i could rely on myself to be there
tomorrow, but i never can. i have a choice to be okay with letting it go, or
locking in on it until the thing is done. locking in and staying up means an
inferior result compared to if i got a night's sleep, but it's better than the
thing that never got made. it's a gamble, and i have never learned in all these
years to predict or even guess at the outcome.  tonight i'm going to try
ordering a hot dog, drinking some 0% chocolate milk, 2 beers and finish as much
as i can before i pass out (which i'm not going to try to delay in any way) and
we'll see how that approach works.  i'll be sad if this doesn't get done because
i spent _hours_ developing material for it. 

couple of nights ago i went for a nap in the street and people kept waking me up
to ask me if i was alright and if i needed anything. can't stop thinking about
it, there are homeless people all over london. are they being woken up asked
that? i was fine, just tired. then they let all those people in The Queue'en
sleep in spare trains? i don't know. anyway. 

remember when Apple shipped a version of Safari where reversed arrays stayed
reversed after a page refresh lol 

by the way, in mexico instead of the tooth fairy they have a tooth mouse 

by the way, in mexico instead of the tooth fairy they have a tooth mouse