week 31 of 2024

time to learn to do it by and for myself again. how is it? i did it for a while, right? i can do that without getting up at 5am i hope hehe. i had so much to say before but now that i’m on the mike i’m choking. my week was perfectly normal. i wrote some Automerge stuff, finished up a breakup, slept poorly.

i kind find my glasses right now but that’s okay because my eyes are closed.

when i arrived home with the cushion and socks she was already putting her boxes in the taxi, i helped with the last few and we held each other and said goodbye and i forgot to hand over the socks. they have little boars on them. i have a cushion now that says “estrella” on it with a star, someone in the Railway gave it to me. it’s pretty dirty and needs a wash, so am i and so do i.

i’m struggling to remember specific events or stories that seem mine to tell. i wanted to say something about teaching each other not to need each other but i don’t want to any more.

my app is in a completely broken state because i started rethinking it because i got too excited about the future i started thinking i could build it but i’m not smart enough nor persistent enough to build it.

i’m not going to fall apart, i’m just going to drink a little more tequila and go back to sleep. they gave me a glass on wine in the sock shop. i think the week was strange and busy, wasn’t it? i haven’t taken any notes. i don’t want to see or hea any more flies i’ve seen and heard enough of them.

it’s so empty here and i fucking hate it