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    OK. that breakup's gonna stick. it was mutual. it's over. i've felt the relationship leave my body. it was a pleasant breakup, though my eyes are wet and my body is heavy. what a wonderful person. and memories to be cherished. mexico city, the waterfalls, the pyramids, the summer, the music, the family, the corn. you know all that. it's all on the blog. i was happier than i've ever been, for a while. it's strange breaking up on-line. sitting here in my chair, at my desk. using the same computer from which i've just done a day of meetings. just another piece of business. another set of carefully crafted words. we spent valentine's day together. an hour of it. on the phone. it was lovely, like before. we were right there, next to one another. i could almost touch it. but i couldn't. we made all sorts of plans together for the future. it felt so easy. when it was over, the hard was all the more clear. all the more definite. i feel ok. heavy, and sad. i still haven't opened the tequila we bought together when she was here. next month, maybe. time is an enemy. distance is an enemy. faraway love is a full time occupation.
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    Week 06, ’23

    Week 06, '23

    A busy week. Went to the office several times. Think I'll stop eating meat. Well, I'm still planning to eat fish and shellfish. I'll stop eating birds and mammals. And bugs. I'll stop eating lizards. I'll continue to eat 8 spiders a year.

    We ran a tech writing workshop. It went fine. I taught. It was fun. It's hard to run a workshop for the first time. It's hard to run a hybrid workshop. I wish there was a strategy other than making the experience of one set of attendees worse. Until I've seen, or thought of, some new way of doing things I'd only like to run workshops fully remote or fully in-office. Maybe we should get some of those little iPads that drive around. The teleprescence robot things.

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    Figure 1: a human being attending a meeting

    My new team is my favourite thing. I love working with these people. We're doing some really good stuff. I'm hopeful for the future.

    On Friday I took the train with Pixie to see Duckie in a Sleeping Beauty panto in Windlesham. It was a lovely time. Duckie is so captivating. She, much like Spindleshanks, has star quality. Her voice cuts right through you and shivers your bones like the cold winter wind. (In a good way.) I was so overwhelmed that I cried. (In a good way.) By the time the panto was over there were no more buses. We walked for an hour through the open fields and public golf courses to the train.

    Two birthday parties I'd agreed to attend fell on the same day. Saturday night. I realized this on Saturday afternoon. I responded by cooking an omelette and attending neither. The week was exhausting, I was not up to much. I stayed home and played video games and wrote some emacs lisp. I'm writing this blog post in a .org file right now like a freak.

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    Figure 2: lol

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    week five, '23

    What a week!

    Just kidding; nothing happened.

    I went to the office on Tuesday, saw some peeps. It was nice. Had a seven hour meeting. OK.

    Arranged with Pixie to see Duckie on stage in Windlesham next week.

    Continued to do very little other than work and play video games. On Tuesday i went out to the bar and talked about work until 11p.m. while drinking ice cold pints of water. Actually had a really hard time leaving the house all week, and was not eating or sleeping well. Will try to fix that this week.

    really nothing much to report.

    good luck.

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    4th week '23

    work has been very busy, very good. having a good time.

    on thursday evening i went out for dinner at ganapati with becky. that's one of the top people the world has made. she's vegetarian and i'm doing this low-carb-so-i-don't-die-so-soon thing, so a place that has a killer veggie thali seemed like a good option. thali wasn't on the menu, for some reason, maybe they stopped doing that. we got three main meals instead. afterwards we went to a bar and drank 2 pots of tea. i was up until 3am. guess it was strong tea. the scotsman behind the bar seemed furious to be selling us tea.

    because work has been so much i've been trying to take it quiet in my spare time. also, of course, i'm not drinking. and i spent too much money last month... and this month, so all that adds up to staying home, playing video games, making tasty meals. i haven't been making any music or doing much creative, but i'll get back on that soon enough.

    one of the things i spent too much money on is a steam deck. it's very cool? repairable, runs arch linux and kde plasma, a great computer and game machine. im writing this blog post on it

    add me on steam, my tag is cheedear i think.

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    week the third, year twenty three

    lol! plumb forgot to post yesterday.

    what have i done this week? i don't know if it's anything. i:

    • played the role of User to do a user test for my lb.
    • worked
    • played video games

    is that it?

    yeah i really think i've just been working and playing video games for a week lol. and i'm gonna do it again for another week!!! idgaf!!!!!

    you ever look at yourself in the mirror and it's cute and then you take a selfie and you look like a n̶̨̨̡̡͓̺͉͖̜̣͇͙͓̺̠̱̗͉͉̹̰͕͚͚̯̲̹̥̝͉̼͉͖̯̭͖̤̞̭͕̗̅̾͋̌͒́͊͆̃͐͗̀̔̊̑̽̆̈̓̉̃̐͜͜͝͝ͅo̸̧̠̲͓͙̘͋̈́̍̏̅͊͒̓̃̓̕͘͝͠t̸̛̺͇̗̬̹̦̣̩͕̯̣̠͓̥̒̾̋̉̽̌͆̊́͂̇͊͐̇́̈͛̒̇̑̓̚̚̚͠h̸̨̢̡̛̞̬̤̰̣̫̹̑͑͋͗͌̓̐̒̆̒̀̃̀̆͆͒͆̈́̆̄̍́̎̑͐͘͝͝͝à̷̡̢̡̢͈̪͓͉̺̻̣̜̠̻̞̪̮͈͈̦̣͖̲̰̤͔͙̦̙̳͉̤̹̼̦̮̭̦̼͚͊̽̆͑͆͊̋͆͂̌͛͐̅̾͒̽͑̊̊̓̀͒̅̏̎̿̅͌̍͂̑̉͋̓́̈̉̀͆͗̅͘̕̚͜͠͝n̶̡̧̮̳̻̼̘͉̗̞͙̗̹̗̤̱̞͊̊͐͆̀̓̈̊̿̓̓̊̈̏̓̈́̈̌́̌̉̏͊́͗͐̎͘͘̚͝͝͝͝͝ķ̶̛̲͉̼͚̳̦̩̜̟̙͙̳̺̘̫̇̿̔͑̀͊͋̂͆̍̀̓̈̅̑͌̀̓͌̾͌̇͊̌͗̄̏̀͋̂̐̍̋́̌̕̚͠͝͠ͅy̸̧̡̛̛̙̣̳̞̻̦͕͕̪̼̼͉̥̱͖͙̞̙̩̭͗̎́́̄͊͆̃͋̆̄̂̉̿̍̈͋͑͐̈́̕͘͜͝͝ơ̷̡̤̭̬̗͖͓̮͒͂̏̆̇̅̊̐͋́͑̿̎̒̋̈́͌̂̏̑͆̃́͛͆̔̈́́̊̾̐͑̉̓̕̚͝͠ư̸̧̢̲̯̲̭̹̮̮̎̿̿͂͐͠

    anyway. can't believe i forgot to post. slept just fine.