• thanks

• i've been trying to burn a mix CD in 2022.

  • Music.app still shows the option "Burn playlist to disk" if you insert a blank CD.
  • I made a playlist for reasons that can't be discussed here for now.
    • got the songs from a variety of places.
      • some i bought from iTunes,
        • some i already had
      • some i downloaded on Soulseek, and
      • another i bought on Bandcamp.
  • I tried with a bunch of disks, kept failing to burn.
    • Tried with different speeds and usb ports and all kinds, no luck.
    • figured it was my shitty cheap eBay cd writer
    • Eventually bought an Apple SuperDrive. in 2022. got it cheap on eBay.
      • It worked!
        • then i discovered i'd accidentally put a track with a hidden track as track 2.
          • i cut that track up, putting the hidden part at the end of the mix CD ;D ;)

• oh? are we back to doing bullets, rabbits?

• On Wednesday I went into the office. Then I went out with some people from work I don't see very often and gathered a hangover, and found myself defending my inclusion of elon musk on the list of people i will be visiting once i get my gun.

• On Thursday I went into the office again so I could attend boardgames and see Dani and Christabel.

  • i love them, and several of their friends

  • Christabel left quite early, after which I drank very quickly and then went to karaoke with many complete strangers and also S.

  • I don't really remember much other than I said way too much several times, and there was a cute person there who cared as much as i do about Night Shape and S was very kind and took care of me and and I once again found myself defending my inclusion of elon musk on the list of people i will be visiting once i get my gun. for reference, see the 3 trueanon episodes about elon to understand why he deserves to be on the ch'k-ch'k-boom list and please stop defending billionaires you bunch of weirdos

    • thanks
      • thanks thanks thanks thanks thanks
    • and i remember saying "thanks thanks thanks thanks thanks thanks" during the instrumentals of karaoke songs
      • and i remember my voice being completely ruined but trying to sing anyway
    • and i remember not caring what anybody thinks

• On Thursday I also had lunch with one of my absolute favourite colleagues, and learned some very interesting historical info about their family and a variety of jungle animals

• Follow-up on the Monzo fraud thing: The Financial Ombudsman took my side and the charges were all reversed, and then Monzo sent me an extra **£**50 to apologize for making me call ombudsman on them.

  • ombudsmans rule banks drool
    • i can't wait to escalate more things to an ombudsman. this is a whole new path for me.
    • if you are rude to me i will tell the ombudsman

• On Friday i hid in a dark room and flaked on everybody.

  • i feel so bad for not attending E's birthday. i think of her every time i look at the stars, yet i was not there for her birthday.
  • if anyone ever tells you it's ok to say no to things they are lying

• I spent most of Saturday cataloguing Lee Harvey Oswald content in DEVONthink 3

  • he was truly a patsy
  • but not just a patsy
    • i'm working on texas school book depository again.

• then i had a psychedelic experience on a bus and stratford westfield, and on greater anglia train

  • how many gecs is this?
  • ca_n't get out, can't get out_
  • f_eel like i’m moving but i’m not, feel like i’m movi_ng but i’m not

• On Saturday evening I attended a strange event

  • felt like rave culture filtered through an HR department

    • i can't be having being cc'd in an email with a bunch of strangers
    • or having the few beers i brought confiscated on the way in
    • or gendered bathrooms
    • hired Security, no feeling of security
    • licensed bar(??)
    • somewhat art
    • also a vibe that i can’t explain. artsy, serious, oppressive, like there is a way to be there. can’t put my finger on it, but … it’s party vibes not rave vibes . and when i say party i mean dinner party not AWK party.
    • they also didn't give me my beer back on the way out
      • one person pretended not to remember the beer
      • another pretended they threw it in a skip
      • i told them i was not looking for reimbursement and begged them simply for some sincerity, which they refused

  • all that being said it was really wonderful too.

    • the lights and the music, very good. especially later.

    • we held hands and told each other we loved each other and held each other and i legit cried lol

    • tatiana and katya were there, who i love uncontrollably.

      • it was very hard to leave while they were there

    • there was also someone there who kept calling me Thumper, which i enjoyed

• i wish i was born with no genitals just completely smooth from the top to the bottom all around just an egg i wish i was born a perfect angel baby egg all smooth and beautiful

• After that event, i walked for thirty minutes listening to hyperpop and then took a train from one business park unit to another

  • i had to leave that event shortly after i arrived because the vibe was all wrong
    • i'm trying to listen to myself when i get a vibe, after new years when i ignored the vibe and it was real
  • this vibe was so fucked that it's making me think i should have done something about it, rather than just tell everyone why i was leaving and then leave.

• oh and also, at the risk of embarrassing myself dreadfully moments from now:

  • i appear to have given up smoking?
    • don't know if it's real, but i haven't had any nicotine since Friday morning
      • didn't use a vape, didn't buy any cigs. don't have any.
    • the idea of smoking a cigarette seemed gross to me earlier, several times.
      • don't know,seems strange.
      • i didn't do it on purpose, i just forgot to smoke all day and now it's Day 3.

• i think i have something in my paper journal i wanted to write about here, but it's slightly too far away so i'm going to hit that publish button

• thanks

  • thanks thanks thanks thanks thanks

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