week 30 of 2024

i’ve become extremely unreliable.

i broke things at work, nobody could post the news for 6 minutes.

i tried my best with everything else but i guess it all fell apart.

i took things poorly, but it’s okay, everybody knows i should never ever do this.

we had a nice time at the rooftop cinema, nothing went wrong even at the end. the next day dinner at persepolis was nice but it went wrong at the end. on saturday and sunday it wasn’t as good, because they went wrong at the start. sunday improved a lot as it went on, but i did spend £180 on tickets to a festival that we never actually made it to. we made it as far as the field outside the festival and then lay down, then went home and went into a k-hole.

i did not enjoy the first part of saturday, but i did enjoy the second part of saturday. i did not enjoy the first part of sunday, but i did enjoy the second part of sunday.

the future is uncertain and concerning and full of fear and heartbreak and some “the first time” that will be bad. maybe there will be good too, but not much stability and i don’t think i’ll be doing all of this stuff with CRDTs and Signals because that requires some brain power and that is not going to be there in the future.

be kind to yourself and others