w35 of 2026

i can not believe it's Sunday again and time to write. this week went like that. last one was one of them ones but this week went like that.

you live here all your life?

yes

do you love it?

y...e…s……….

so why do you stay?

other places it’s better to be on the beaches or the fields but here it’s better to work

other places it’s better to live but here it’s better to work?

yes *turns the music up*

did the french really invent going down a street and not being able to get out the other side

Aug 24, 2026 at 10:09 PM EDT | 17°C Partly Cloudy | MP Reproductions, Montréal QC

i’m lying on my lil rabbit couch in my little rabbit hotel watching battle rap. would like to spend a little more time here. it’s a big mouse town. it's a sitting around on little benches town. it's a church next to the stripclub town. you know the kind of town? that, and a big mouse town.

i really wish -- no never mind -- 15 minutes of fame -- a quarter too -- i'm a dime short of a half dollar and you're a quarter too -- that is worth some time to think, that is worth some time

Aug 25, 2026 at 3:12 PM EDT | 21°C Partly Cloudy

i didn’t have time to get a new tattoo in Montreal, so i owe a piece of myself to that city must return

i'll quit my job and open a vibe shop like Velours

i popped into kingston, it was nice.

Aug 26, 2026 at 7:21 AM EDT | 15°C Fog | Union / Mowat, Kingston ON

tim horton hears a hoo

Aug 26, 2026 at 8:12 AM EDT | some little clouds but mostly gentle baby blue | Megabus Terminal

i'm once again on the back of a cross-country bus. Though they don't have Greyhounds here anymore and I don't think they have anything that goes across the whole land. but i understand there are Megabuses that cover the East, Megabuses that cover the west. Some of real formative happenings happened towards the back of one of these kinds of big bus, nodding out (not from heroin, lack of sleep - but very similar to heroin without the nice lifting out of suffering). I'd come to and there'd be a city I'd never seen; a 7eleven parking lot; a rush-in-rush-out McDonalds pit stop "we'll leave without you!"; a river, a forest, a field, a white stone lime temple (might have been a bank), a desert like straight out of loony toons with a orange-mellow sand and cartoon cactus (looking back maybe they might have been the kind with little hats you can eat in Mexico). That was nearly 20 years ago. Just 2 was Barca-Paris-LDN. Two before that was between me and sof and the waterfalls, that's in here i guess. Both? Trains feel like transport but big bus don't, they're a place on wheels

the megabus smells fascinating. Agent Smith really the most sympathetic character in The Matrix (1999) right now.

The sky today's all periwinkle peppered pale with salty clouds, i’m sitting in the back of the bus with my bag opened up. There’s a picture of the two of us! Yes, what a pretty sky like washed denim.

the cpsi numbers in Toronto are out of this world. Highest of any Canadian city so far

and it was lovely, LOVELY, to see Shehara and Marianna and meet their husbands. it's been two decades of anticipation. and it was lovely to see my friend Zaina. Shehara made a dip, we sat silly in the park and then to the One Star Bar with Zoozoo where i ate a bowl of chili until i got too sleepy to live and then me and Zoozoo went back to my place and talked.

The lady at the record store let me try the box chomper, that's the chomper that chomps boxes open from their protective plastic shells. And there's a toilet rusted shut and hinges clogged with uric clumps. When you're ready to be friends let me know and we'll go to the movies. Until then it's... all the stops hurt like clockwork. Sorry, forget I said anything. All the fixings in the bathroom are squeaking like they're tight new fits but they're tight from filth i think?

Zaina took me out to the ball game and it was such a wonderful night. There's nothing like a big baseball game. It's for everyone.

Remember when the hot dog man shouted “goof! fucking goof! faggot! white faggot!” at that dude outside the museum?

And Diana took me to a marvelous little gallery called Toutoune. Wonderful people. I love them, hope i will return.

There is so much more to write about that, and about Toronto. And if i don't write it now so much of it will dribble out of my ears and into the nowhere forever. But I've run out of time, I have 2% battery and it's already the day after yesterday.

I'm absolutely dreading going back to work. I don't want to talk to anyone or about anything at all to do with any of that ever again for as long as i live. Perhaps after a little nap and a bowl of chili i will see things differently. But right now the very idea with it fills me with a dread that is so wet i might drown in it, a slimy wet dread that coats the bathroom stall and there are things living in it and i can't even look at it because i'm afraid i might smell it or taste it or see it move.

I visited Eataly, Toronto. Didn't I write something about that? And Zoozoo came. It was so nice to have a friend. I could really move to Toronto and have a whole group of friends to just slot into, several little scenes. Also, some other day a guy from Ottawa showed me a photo of some boobs on his phone in the back of a coffee shop on Queen Street and then the barista called me baby and gave me a free cold brew. She was trying to fix me. It worked for a little while.

Back in the mild wild web. Can we have files that only exist when you're somewhere? But they exist for everyone who's there? It's time to open an art gallery / shop / tattoo parlour. i think the computer is part of it too. i feel a little like teenage engineering did when they made the op-1, everyone was going analogue. And Jesper was like hey, i think there's still some more juice in pure digital computer synth. there's more FM, more LPC, there's stuff in there. Let's make it feel good and lean into the computer. The girlies are making cyberdecks, they go into their little analogue bag. The analogue bag has an iPod in an unexpected turn on linguistics.

You know how Digital and Analogue mean like Discrete and Continuous? You can measure a newspaper column in inches, that's analogue. Or in words, that's digital. Quantative vs Qualitative research could get that too. We could rename them. Quantative research can be known as digital research or discrete research, and qualitative research can be renamed to analogue research or continuous research. Quantized is on a grid, but non-quantized is more true to life. Free, true, continuous, grainy. Infinite resolution research.

sorry - it's time to go and make a chili. i hope tomorrow i find out i'm going to be okay. but i don't know how to 7 of Wands without 5 of Swordsing it all up. or, i'm not sure i do. a wingless cauduceus carried by a disembodied griffin as long as we hold on to our emotions and focus on... well, i need to buy some celery and beans