Sunday, May 30, 2021

trigger warning: diet, weight, eating disorders
- it was 2017 when i last lost a huge amount of weight. i lost about half my weight.
  - i used keto
  - eventually i realised, sometime in 2018, that thinking about food all the time and counting calories in an app was disordered
    - i’ve struggled with bulimia in the past, and various other mental and dietary issues
      - i was sectioned a number of years ago, so i try to be careful about cultivating new and interesting disorders
  - i decided to stop dieting, to let myself gain weight and not feel bad about it
  - i have a blood test from 2018 which shows my blood sugar was fine
  - so now i know that giving myself a break has literally given me diabetes
  - and the way to live with diabetes is to go on a diet almost identical to keto
  - what an exciting new challenge
  - what a depressing, yet thematically sound, series of events
i’ve been sick most of this week
- physically
- though mentally i am not doing well
  - i am not looking forward to the next part of my life
  - i don’t know how to cook for myself without rice
  - i don’t know how to be alone
  - sometimes i have this warm and comforting daydream where i die in my sleep
i set up backups on my laptop and the snoot.club server this morning
- i’m using borg
  - because fox told me to
    - basically borg and restic is where the deduplicated encryption backup stuff is at Foxboron
  - it is a cool piece of software though
i was going to look into adding a gutenberg sidebar for the indieweb Post Kinds wordpress plugin this weekend, but instead i closed my laptop and had a lie down
i bought the Besley* and Jost* variable fonts from indestructible type* for my weblog
- Jost* is the variable futura of my dreams
- here is another great font: https://www.dafont.com/w95fa.font
  - i’m using this as my system font at the moment. it looks great.
remember when they reanimated bob monkhouse’s ashen corpse so he could appear in an advert on terrestrial television

public software

i’ve just done some info crunching,trying to distil what i want to say with “free software” but without the problems of the term “free software” (having to explain you don’t mean $$$) and the problem with “open-source” (having to explain it’s also still Free) and all the related bad terms like: FOSS FLOSS etc and i have come up with a new and better term:

public software

update: i am not the first person to use this term

moonlit (the moon is a banana)

slow cooked some steak in achiote paste and vinegar for about 5 hours now it will be served with pickled onion, fresh cabbage, refried white beans, feta cheese and cheddar cheese on yellow corn tortillas

i was diagnosed with diabetes this morning and have spent the rest of the day writing css

Sunday the 23rd of May 2021

released unidentified
- it’s on soundcloud and apple music and spotify
- it’s on my site here too
  - https://quiet.chee.party/unidentified
- i set the record label to “chee.party/unidentified” and so now it says ”© 2021 chee.party/unidentified” on Spotify and Apple Music
  - when you visit it there, on its true home on the web, you may notice it is CC0 public domain
i first read about “alt+tab” in a physical paper book called something like Windows 95 Tricks & Secrets
- i ran over to my computer, which was running the Windows 98 beta that I got given on a secret CD
  - my father obtained it through his contacts in The Industry
  - i lent it to 1 of 100 english army boys called Matt who lived down the street
    - i don’t believe i ever got it back
- i actually remember the feeling, it was like “how many more are there like this?”
- i’d uncovered a secret interface
  - maybe i’m embarking on a new journey where i would learn hundreds more
  - i’m just now lighting my torch in this dark cavern
- there were exactly 0 more
on Wednesday abe and me got tacos in a real life restaurant
- it’s called DF Tacos
  - they do really good tacos
    - i really like tacos
i don’t really remember the rest of the week
- i got this calyx institute t-shirt
- you know, they run a free vpn and a free xmpp server
i have a vaccine booking for early june
- they’re going to inject me with 5g and make me a magnet
- i wish i could choose which vaccine i’m getting
  - i want the russian one
    - it’s one and done
  - or one of the cuban ones
    - one of the cuban ones is a spray that goes up your nose
      - it’s called Mambisa, named after the revolutionary Cubans who fought off the Spanish
        
        the revolutionary Cuban women who fought off the Spanish, i guess?
    - help them out
    - let’s move to cuba
      - Dr Gerardo Guillén, who heads up development of two vaccines at the Center for Genetic Engineering and Biotechnology, is a chocoholic who has had to do without his favourite fix for over a year (there is none in the shops). His £200 a month salary is a hundred times less what he could earn abroad.
        
        “We do have offers,” said Dr Mitchell Valdés-Sosa, “but we prefer to stay because we feel a commitment to the development of our country. We’re not working to make some chief executive obscenely rich; we’re working to make people healthier.”
      - like wtf
- the thing i remember to comfort me that they aren’t going to inject me with 5g and make me a magnet is that if they really wanted to get something inside me they would simply put it in the water supply
anyway i need to make coffee now. please enjoy unidentified
- if you listen with your eyes closed it’s the 14 minute first half of a story of first contact
  - musically speaking, i mean. it’s not like a word story. just pure vibes

did that thing today where i blow away my whole linux partition and start again

it’s some kind of extreme sport; recreational crisis zone

i tried qubesos, it was unusable on my laptop. now i’ve installed manjaro. manjaro is remarkably good. btrfs, encrypted boot. it was almost effortless to get to a system that would normally take me an hour or two on vanilla arch.

i’d like some vanilla ice cream, but they would saw my feet off.