2021-11-21 | me piro, vampiro

i dyed
my hair vampire red
- i tried to go cotton candy pink first, but i think the cotton candy pink i got was fake.
  - conspicuous behaviours:
    - foamed up way too much, as if it was just pink conditioner
    - did not dye my hands or face skin, which is weird for manic panic
    - when i went to rinse it out with cold water it out it foamed up even more, which is not something manic panic tends to do
    - ran clear immediately at rinsing stage
    - did not dye my hair
  - compare to the vampire red i applied next:
    - did not foam up
    - dyed my entire face and hands and also my entire house almost immediately after being opened
    - did not foam up when being rinsed out
    - never ran completely clear even after being run under cold water for twenty minutes (it still hasn’t run clear after several showers and a bath)
    - dyed my hair

don’t worry about the panda. their name is pizza dog
jaja con jota
today i went to 7 shops trying to find coriander
- there is no coriander in blackheath
we had a guest team member for a couple of weeks and it was a joy
ok, i have to make some music and some tacos see ya

Sunday, Hallowe'en 2021

Hallowtide begins
I was meant to go to a party in Southampton but instead I had a lie down on the sofa
I’ve been working too much. keep finding myself still working at 10p.m., or in Friday’s case at 9a.m.
- I have no natural reason to stop, need to fake it some how
this week had not much in it.
- i got a 1010music bluebox. made some music. it’s not very good. having a good time though.
  - i can use the little lfo device i made last week
- i went to the office, picked up a new computer.
- met a nice couple on the train, they sent me photos of their pasta when they got home
- sent a couple postcards. they should arrive on monday and tuesday.
can’t believe it’s been a year since i made those spooky peppers and our kombucha rotted on the mantle
just remembered i booked tomorrow off work, and the tension i didn’t know i was feeling melted away like the perfect silence after the fusebox blows

Sunday, 2021-10-24

eating a beyond burger
- do you think we ever would have figured out we could do this with vegetables if we’d never eaten meat?
  - probably not, right?
    - so, question: what else can we do with vegetables ??
- it’s fucked up people invented bread though
- sometimes if you talk to a vegan about beyond burgers they will stare at you with wide open eyes and a chilling smile and say “IT BLEEDS”
i’ve been sick most of the week. also my blood sugar has been really high and has been melting the roof of my mouth. starting to feel better today

LFO device

i’m making a little usb midi lfo device
- currently implementing the bpm-synced sin function, which is much harder without a little math man about the house
i don’t know if i have anything else to report
ATB’s 9pm (til i come) was playing in Lewisham shopping center when i was leaving yesterday.
- second single i ever bought
- it came in a cardboard sleeve with a sticker saying “HMV Import”
- i bought it in the upstairs of a mall in Northern Ireland that I have never been to again, and have no idea where it is
  - that was also the first time i saw the cover of Nirvana’s Nevermind
- the first single i bought was Flat Beat by Mr Oizo.
  - got that in woolies
ricky martin’s livin la vida loca was the first #1 single to be fully made in a DAW
when i was having absolutely lysergic sit on a bench in battersea park last week, i realized i’d been drunk since July so i took a break for a week
i have a spot on my right areola. it looks and feels like a third nipple
thanks

Sunday, October 17 2021

my grandfather, he can’t read or write; but he can sing like nina simone
I went our for pixie’s birthday from Thursday until Saturday night
on Saturday morning I went for a long walk from Wandsworth to Camden
I saw ducky perform live on stage in a music hall in Windlesham
- it was wonderful
I’ve not gone to the rave, so i could spend Sunday recovering

October 10th Twenty-twenty-one

I’ve just returned from my morning constitutional, and now it’s time to write a blog post.

pissed off this week
- someone I’d made plans with cancelled at the last minute and then ignored me for three days, so that pissed me off
- someone I invited to my house cast aspersions about the place and mocked my claim that i would be able to keep it tidy. it’s a home I’m very proud to have made, where everything has a place, and I work on keeping it clean every day. so that pissed me off
- people keep attributing changes in my personality to “age” “maturity” and “getting older” that are the result of a lot of work getting over mental illness. i have to work at it every day, but it makes it seem like I could have instead just waited until I was 33. so that has pissed me off
- someone made a joke about how the work I’ve spent months on has made their life slightly more inconvenient, so that pissed me off
i’ve spent my whole life letting myself be disrespected by people who were meant to be my friends because they didn’t understand me, or they thought i was insane. if you don’t respect me now, you can fuck off, im busy.
been listening to ELECTRIC SHOCK by FUFU on repeat all week
- they are a trap artist from Costa Rica
- they are non-binary
- they are so cool
- they switch between English and Spanish while they are rapping, sometimes in the middle of lines, and it sounds so good. it’s like they’re doing skateboarding tricks in my ears. they’re so cool
- i found it in a playlist called TRAP DIVAS but then i read their twitter profile and one time they tweeted “i am a boy.. and i am a girl… no es difícil de entender”
- before that they tweeted “blue boy”
I had a delivery from mexgrocer.co.uk on Friday and have been living quite the life of tacos and chili con carne
- this morning i started the day with a kind of improvised huevos divorciados; in this case two eggs (sunny side up, lightly steamed) separated by a river of refried beans. one egg with salsa verde and the other with pickled red onions, sour cream (both of which I made yesterday) and hot sauce. I had no red salsa.
my life is finally a good balance of work, cooking, art and raves.
i’m working on a game for the PicoSystem called CHICKEN EGG HOLE
in which the chicken puts the egg in the hole

animation of chicken egg hole being played. it shows that the chicken avoids colonel sanders to put the egg in the hole. if the chicken goes in the hole, the screen goes black and display "chicken hole :-(" — CHICKEN EGG HOLE

chicken egg hole teaches you to load sprites, take user input, and have win and loss states
- colonel sanders is only an obstacle. but maybe the obstacle should be piles of straw and maybe colonel sanders should eat the chicken and maybe colonel sanders should eat the egg.

Sunday the 3rd of October

chee rabbits standing in front of a large screen displaying a seahorse — seahorse

something i expected to happen didn’t happen
simon legg is in london
nothing has really happened. i have only been working and watching movies and having Large Naps.

Sunday 26th September 2021

Hello!

Finished everything I promised to do for work for the rest of the year, so will be spending Q4 sleeping
Went to a gig on Wednesday night with two of my favourite people (pixie and ducky)
- it was good
I went to the pub that is a 180 second walk from my desk in my flat.
- it describes itself as a local pub for everyone
- i asked for a london pride and they said “i wouldn’t if i were you”
- it’s a nice place

bought some socks with hedgehogs on em, and some socks with rabbits and eating carrots

not much has happened, really. the real excitement in my life at the moment is unpacking and organizing
- what about this: roll your cables up and put them in labeled sandwich bags
  - it’s great! i have all my wires and cables in one big bucket, but they are organized and don’t entangle one another
- i got a dyno junior label maker and have labeled all my cupboards. i have places for everything. it’s great
in 2019 alice bartlett made some charming little booklings as trophies for documentation day.
unwisely i packed one at the bottom of a box when i was moving
it is looking worse for wear

a beat-up green runbook figurine stands on top of an audio interface, looking
out over some teenage engineering synths. it is making a groovy sideways thumb
gesture with its remaining arm — BRAVEST RUNBOOK

i have relabeled it “BRAVEST RUNBOOK” since its little label fell off.
here it stands watching over the electronic music area of the house, where it has been very helpful to me
i think i was in the middle of making a latte, and then got distracted by sweeping up, and then got distracted by putting stuff away, and then got distracted by setting up this little electronic music making area (i took apart a wallplug with a screwdriver so i could pass the wire up the thin gap at the back of the alcove), and then got distracted writing this and so now i should probably unroll those events until i hit latte
thanks!!
OH! i forgot to tell you about when i went to give the keys to the estate agent, and the End-of-Tenancy cleaner “declined the job” 30 minutes after arriving at the apartment 1 hour late because it was dirty. anyway. Fantastic Services are not, in my experience, Fantastic.
- it’s also nearly impossible to get a hold of anyone to talk to, it’s really bad