sixth 2024
i'm in the back of a taxi cab. the tunnel is closed under the water. there's so much traffic that our driver has started playing music. i didn't notice until then that Bolt cabs rarely have music playing? he asked permission? we're all listening to madhur sharma now. our driver is singing along.
many congratulations to lb. i'm so happy to see you so happy.
a thing that's been happening stops happening tomorrow, it'll be better after. lucky numbers is out on wednesday. i've started working on the new e.p. already, it's got a couple good songs on it too. been listening to björk and 90s ny hiphop and nola bounce. cameron paul brown beats on repeat. need to get my hands on a QY70 and sit on the rocks at the end of england and tell a story.
sometimes when she is falling asleep she starts shaking like she’s about to turn into a bigger pokemon. the big highlight, of course, is that guy in the alley with the trenchcoat and cane and the stony expression showing no fear locking our eyes, smoking his cigarette and listening to 40s music from an invisible speaker. if life is a tv show we are all extras except for that guy.
reminded of OpenCola by Cory writing in the pink paper. there's 100 metric tons of legal coca leaf sitting in a factory in New Jersey .
my shoulders hurt, so i'm going home to see my mattress about a nap. tomorrow will be a better day than yesterday and yesterday was pretty good.
fifth 2024
Please forward any incoming mail to my new address: 123 Easy Street, Fat City.
one for sorrow, but magpies mate for life. if you look closely you can find the joy.
quiet week. ate some pickles. went home and picked up a cookbook. i released lucky numbers, it'll be on iTunes and streaming services on feb 14th. put it in your calendar. pre-save it on spotify. or buy it on bandcamp if you can't wait. it's as good as the cover. so will the next one be.
we listened to quiet party on the tv
booked a little holiday. going away at the end of feb. going to Lizard, Cornwall. the bottom of england, the southernmost point. it'll be good. spend a few days doing nothing, nowhere. spend a few days doing everything else. it'll be good.
we watched season 1 of lodge 49 this week, it's my favourite television programme. i've watched it a lot of times now. on friday night we broke our diet for a day and ate some chocolate and a v tasty vegetarian burrito from the highly ａｅｓｔｈｅｔｉｃ cafe mexicana. then we drank some hard seltzer, ate some mushrooms and went to soho. we had a drink at a bar and then went home again. i nearly fainted on the central line but i held it together and sang.
saturday was slow and quiet. i've been in a strange place and trying to fix it. i went home on friday night to see what space felt like. we talked on the phone and then watched episode 1 of lodge 49 season 2 then z came over with a suitcase full of pillows. in the morning we went to see wonka on Rhys's recommendation. i never really expected to see Wonka, but i've never seen Rhys more animated about anything in his life than when he was talking about Wonka. at the time his passion seemed so uncharacteristic, but not anymore. he was right, Wonka is great. i cried and was wet and then went home.
now i'm lying in my bed thinking about how nice it would be to eat several hundred sandwiches, thinking about packing a suitcase, thinking about making some music, thinking about camden market, thinking about reading a little or writing, thinking about lime and parsley, quiet party. there's 3% battery life left in my computer so i'll post this before it dies.
fourth 2024
so baaaaaaaasically everybody's bullying me just because i'm so cute and popular
what's the cutest place in england to go to in february/march? maybe corn wall
i haven't fixed lucky numbers yet, but i've made a album cover. i think i need to release it with fewer songs, because i've lost faith in some of them. we'll see.
london graphics centre. picked up a few books. a midori md paper grid notebook, sakura pigma micron pen, pair of tombow brush pens. zz got the same but the paper is ruled. we wandered around soho imagining what if we lived here. 1 bed in the middle of soho. local station: tcr. local park: hyde. nice night. kitchen table. seinfeld.
nice week. good week, yes. not much to report. silly stuff during the day. good stuff at night, good stuff in the morning. long saturday, we walked and walked. 20,000 steps. i've been making these omelettes where you beat 4 eggs w/ 60g greek yoghurt + 40g mozzarella cheese. rly good, flufy. lucky made it on saturday. it was great. qima for coffee. green valley for groceries.
thursday was nice too. beautiful morning, weird afternoon. akub for dinner. very nice. made something like that milfuf wedge / garlic yoghurt for lunch on sunday with pomegranate seeds. etymonline says "pomegranate" means, like, "apple with a lot of seeds" or, like, "seedy apple". cabbage w/ yoghurt + apple with many seeds seeds.
steadily improving with little dips.
third 2024
hello, darling! :)
drink some water!
on the day we met, i subscribed. £5 a month. for the guilt. so she'd write more. i wrote my postal address down on the back of my computer so she could take a photo and write me a letter. when i was in Portugal she wrote a longer piece, i read it in the little cafe in idanha-a-nova drinking cheap lager. i talked at length with annemarie about how good the writing was, about how talented this young lady was. that it's raw and it's angry but it's there and i want to see it. and i said the same to gabi in the back of the taxi when we met in the castles in Sintra.
i'm sleepy tonight, it's late to be writing. i worked well this week, i understand what's happening at work now and where it came from and why. we worked from home together most of the week. tuesday night we hit a spot of trouble, but it was the last of that kind of trouble for a while. repaired over falafel, knocked out of ketosis, on the same team. that's how it got fixed, stayed fixed.
z's brother left the country. i'll miss him. he's a nice boy, and funny.
i'm working on an e.p. at the moment called lucky numbers. it's a promising set of tracks so far. i have some demos, but i mixed them in an extremely loud cafe on Saturday and i think i did kind of a bad job so i'll have to mix them again. i hope it'll come out on February 14th.
i'm happy. stable and happy. can't remember feeling like this in a long time. can't remember feeling like this before. i made a nice curry tonight. tangy. z made labneh and pink pickles for snack plates. tangy. maybe we'll make some of that keto bread that's just eggs + mozzarella + greek yoghurt. it's delicious, you just put it all in a lined sheet and stick it in the oven and then it's bread of cheese. the days are very busy, lots of walking, lots of little events. my avg walking distance has tripled over the past 5 weeks. resting heartrate down. i'm feeling life-curious. i'm going to live forever.